Why and Who Cares?
My "about" section here gives some insight to my life and the reasons I feel the way I do but still, it is unclear to some. At first glance, some types of people want to throw me in with groupies and murderabilia collectors. While its true that I have no problem with either of those groups of folks and have even supported a few in various endeavors, I am not a member of either group. I dont hate them for their interest and curiosity but I have a different agenda.
Nor am I indifferent to the pain and suffering of the victims and their families. A month rarely goes by that a victims family member doesnt email me to tell me their opinions about what I do for inmates and what should happen to my own children and family because of it. My favorite was probably a crazy aunt of Tiffany Cole in Florida. Tiffany asked for penpals and help getting her side of the story out. She wrote me a letter once when Amelia Carr was just arriving on death row and told me how bad she felt for the girl. I recorded a video about her letter and feelings and even posted it online for others to read. Her crazy aunt sent me an email about how I was a liar and didnt know what I was talking about despite the letter from her own niece being up for all to see. She harassed me for days for simply helping out her niece. Crazy lady.
Death penalty advocates and victims families want to be angry at me for having compassion for the worlds worst people but for the life of me, I cant feel bad for it. It isnt just compassion for human life of all kinds and knowing the death penalty is a costly, shameful American mistake that drives me. It is also the alarming rate of innocent people being given life or even death. Just because the police say it is true, doesnt make it true. They lie, they fabricate evidence, they cover up truths. They are only human, after all. I am afraid the faulty, crooked cops far outweigh the kind, caring, uncorrupt cops.
The biggest reason of all for what I do is rehabilitation. Not parole necessarily, not get out of jail free, not forgive and forget. No, none of that. What I want and what I fight for is much harder to understand than the people who skim this site and decide I am a monster can comprehend with their tiny minds.
What I want is to change the world and the only way I can see to do it is to change whats wrong. Confront the evil head on, and do something about it. I have news for you ladies and gentleman, the evil people you lock up behind bars still affect us on a daily basis. It is true and those of you reading true crime books and watching the ID channel do not have the experience to say anything different. Locking them up is only the beginning of fixing the problems, it isnt the solution.Once they are in prison the bad people go right on being bad. They teach other people to be just as bad as they are and those people get out. They get out of prison and carry on the same evil deeds the people you put in prison taught them.
The only solution, the single solution to this issue, is for prison to be rehabilitative not profit making and not a mechanism to forget the fuck-ups of society. Before you get your panties in a wad, let me tell you that this technique is not for the killer but for YOU. Teaching a criminal compassion and love was your job in the first place and since you have failed so many times, it is your job to make an effort for those in prison so that YOU dont run into one of his students on the street.
These people cant change themselves or it would have already happened. It is up to you and me and everyone in this country to make sure the people coming out of prison are better than they went in. Otherwise, prison is just murder university.