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Robbin Machuca California


Robbin Machucca, one of the four California Mall Murder assailants sent me a letter I received last week. I have about three or four letters from Eileen Huber, another assailant in that set of spree killings that terrorized the California countryside in 1991.

It was Eileen's boyfriend and Robbin's brother, John Lewis, who was the ringleader on a quest to "get back at society" for all the perceived shortcomings he'd been dealt in his life. Robbin's boyfriend, Vincent Hubbard, was also a player in this deadly game where five people lost their lives.

Robbin's letters are slightly different from Eileen's, despite having spent the last two decades together paying for the three months of deadly terror they participated in. Eileen talks of regret and an overwhelming sadness. Her letters are filled with determination to take what hours she has left to fill and turn them into markers of accomplishments dedicated to the victims of the Puente Hills Mall killings. She takes classes and works at prison jobs. She volunteers and has written a memoir, which she distributes to area girl's juvenile facilities. She asks for addresses of girls detention centers and self help classes.

Robbin is equally as repentant, but handles it vastly different. While her letter was filled with regret and shame, there was a touch of self-pity. She repeatedly referred to her crimes as "regrettable", "disgusting" and "shameful". She urged me to "google my name because I cannot bear the shame of repeating the awful things I was involved in". She also laments long and hard about her situation, her lack of family, friends and funds and how long she has been incarcerated, 22 years, without actually having murdered anyone. She asks for letters. She asks for commissary money and  for information on lion prides.

I feel for her. I don't think she should have gotten LWOP. She was young and impressionable and coming from an abusive home, had no real shot at life to begin with. However, it's women like her that allows me a little understanding of those people who refuse sympathy to women like Robbin. While both Robbin and Eileen were knowing accomplices to their men on a three month long, cold blooded murder spree, they have come to terms with it differently.

13 comments:

  1. This was well written :) . I enjoyed it very much as was tempted to comment !!!. I agree with you but watching one of the victims husband cry made me hurt for him even more . . . :( I know Robbin feels bad about what she's done since she's had all the time to freaking sit and think . . . I wish we knew more about her and her brothers upbringing because I feel as though they were done wrong too and had no way out of their situation and went down the same route there mother went down (minus killing) . . . I'm surprised she's written back Robbin is in my prayers along with the victims and their families. . . .
    1)did Robbin say why she wrote you back
    2)did you write her brother & ex boyfriend
    3)does she get visits from her children
    4)did you send her money
    5)did she go into detail about her upbringing ??? I watched that episode of Wicked Attraction and I've always wondered what happened to them!!! Idk if LWOP was harsh or what they deserved all I'm saying is I'm glad they were caught

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    1. I know a lot about her upbringing. Please see the video I did and also the episode of Killer Siblings I did on them.

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  2. She said she answered me because our lives were similar and she was interested in some of the things I offer. I have not written her brother or her ex. She said she hasn't had a visit in many years.I did not send her money but I did send her a list of correspondence schools, a book she asked for, some colored pencils and stamps. She has told me some of her childhood. It was horrible.

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    1. Thank you Robin & John are my cousins.

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  3. :( OH WOW SMH THANKS FOR THE RESPONSE . . . YOU GIVE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH HOPE !!! :)

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    1. Thanks so much for reading and commenting and having an interest. I appreciate it.

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  4. I too had a horrible upbringing and cried as a teenager for many years. I was molested by my own brother and he never said he was sorry when I confronted him. My story can go on and on. My father was absent for many years he only came home three days a week. My father was busy with his girlfriend for many years. My mother had 10 kids from my father. We were dirt poor. My mother was un educated and she worked nights and decided to have an affair too. This left me unsupervised and need I say more? Bad things happen to innocent people, kids, etc. I struggled with the molestation I didn’t get closure until my brother died. The worse thing is yet to be told. I told my mother what my brother did to me. She believed me but kept it secret from my Dad. It wasn’t until I was in my 40s I found out she never told anyone. I carried a lot of anger around had three failed marriages. I managed to get educated and now retired. I didn’t feel sorry for myself. I wanted to be someone. I went through five years of drinking and using crystal meth. I now know I didn’t handle it right. I went to treatment in my fifth year of using. I’ve been clean for more hen 20 years. Bad things happen to good people but we don’t have the right to hurt others. I’ve been married to a good man for 15 years now. I think Robin and her brother felt sorry for themselves. Just saying

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    1. We all think and react differently. No two brains are the same, nor two experiences. what you were able to do has nothing at all to do with what others can.
      I imagine they did feel sorry for themselves. I would have.
      I'm sorry you had a bad early life. Not everyone has the mental capacity to just destroy themselves and go to rehab unfortunately.

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    1. Look her up on the California DOC website. It will have her number and the prison she is in currently.

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  7. Sucks to be Robbin, hope she rots in hell saw their killing spree on Hayu under "Killer Siblings"

    https://www.hayu.com/show/episode/120209960030

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  8. She should die in hell no excuses for a bad upbringing. That's plain excuse making, not everyone who has a bad life ends up killing 5 innocent people, she had a choice, no one put a gun to her head and forced her to go along, She went along willingly. FUCK HER

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